[ Maybe it's his mild manner of speaking, but it really comes across genuine, despite the words being fairly standard feel-good encouragement. He really did trust her to do it! ]
...
[ There's a slight pause before he says anything else, as if he's thinking over his words. ]
It's better for me.
[ There's maybe a slip of something painful there, but he does a pretty good job at hiding it, especially when it's not face to face. After another moment, he elaborates; ]
When I'm alone, I usually manage somehow. I can't always protect others.
[ The sheer amount of people that have died on him weigh him down like a thousand dying suns. None of it had been his fault, not really... and yet in a way it was; had he killed the Beast Titan when he had a chance, at least some of those deaths could have been prevented. He'd always been just strong enough to survive, but not enough to turn the tide, forced to watch subordinates and friends and loved ones die one after another. ]
[ This place, so far, honestly feels less dangerous than his world, not that that's saying much, but he's not sure how he feels about the suggestion. ]
It would be risky to go with me. [ He's not saying no -- that is her choice to make, not his -- but he can at least make sure she's aware of the danger. People tend to perish around him. That aside-- ] But I can show you some tricks when I get back.
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Date: 2023-10-04 10:17 pm (UTC)[ Maybe it's his mild manner of speaking, but it really comes across genuine, despite the words being fairly standard feel-good encouragement. He really did trust her to do it! ]
...
[ There's a slight pause before he says anything else, as if he's thinking over his words. ]
It's better for me.
[ There's maybe a slip of something painful there, but he does a pretty good job at hiding it, especially when it's not face to face. After another moment, he elaborates; ]
When I'm alone, I usually manage somehow. I can't always protect others.
[ The sheer amount of people that have died on him weigh him down like a thousand dying suns. None of it had been his fault, not really... and yet in a way it was; had he killed the Beast Titan when he had a chance, at least some of those deaths could have been prevented. He'd always been just strong enough to survive, but not enough to turn the tide, forced to watch subordinates and friends and loved ones die one after another. ]
[ This place, so far, honestly feels less dangerous than his world, not that that's saying much, but he's not sure how he feels about the suggestion. ]
It would be risky to go with me. [ He's not saying no -- that is her choice to make, not his -- but he can at least make sure she's aware of the danger. People tend to perish around him. That aside-- ] But I can show you some tricks when I get back.